Sibren Fetter

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Well as expected I got the job extention and I will be able to finish what I started

And now that I made a start with blogging I will start using the blog more seriously, bringing forward my research ideas, revelations I had, or doubts that are coming up.

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Big week coming up this week. Wednesday I will have my evaluation whether I can stay on for the next 3 years! At the moment my worry for the evaluation has declined dramatically though. Supervisors saying they are pleased, me feeling right at home at the OU, proposal receiving positive internal reviews, it's looking bright. Still, evaluations like this are always a bit scary.....

Yesterday I had a meeting with my supervisors. It was a strange thing to hear that while my proposal was nearing completion, they would take over and correct certain things which throughout the versions (11 to be exact) I hadn't been able to correct. On the one hand I was happy, finally we are going into a new stage, sending the proposal to reviewers, starting on the model and so forth. On the other hand, I also have a feeling of disappointment. I spend 7 months working and thinking on that proposal and I am convinced that it is a good proposal. But even with all that effort it apparently wasn't good enough and other people have to finish what I started. Somehow that was not how I had envisioned closing off my proposal (Aaaahhh dreams ground to dust ).

And now, in the first week of June I will have my evaluation whether I can stay for the next three years and I am getting nervous. Not because I think I didn't do enough, but because I really enjoy this job and just the thought of having to give this up fires up the nerves. I know I shouldn't be to worried about it, but I want to stay and finish this!

 Aahh exciting times I guess. Maybe the head of personal likes flowers?